I had the loveliest Sunday. The best in my life.

A lot of people around me were asking ‘how is it like, marriage?’

Honestly, most of the time, I was lost without any words to answer. Truth is, perspective of love changes dramatically when you get married. When you’re in one you might understand. The whole relationship thingy is just on a whole new level. Nothing really changes except that the fact its getting steadier and deeper at this stage with its own set of expectation, value and responsibility.

Essentially, everything changes.

I haven’t really got the time to be swayed with lovey-dovey feelings unlike any others coz I was extremely busy at work and MN with his new job. Off work, we were busy with the receptions and finding a house. The most treasured times are always the minutes I'm back home seeing him smiling at me (even if its 6 in the morning!)

6th June was amazingly wonderful. Of course, there was hiccups and lots of headaches but all in all, I was absolutely smitten and grateful to have such loving family, friends and a man who's charmingly adores me like crazy (i quote him). He's absolutely wonderful. Its the most cherished moment to which I shall never forget. Again, I'm speechless.

My lovely pelamin, bedroom deco and table set-up was done by Faiz and Rekateemor's superb team, with a hand bouquet comes in complimentary. Lovely wedding dresses was done by the young, talented and most wonderful Hazree Wahid from Hazree Wahid Couture. Both of them are now my dearest friends whom I treasure. Ooh and lets not forget Chris from Bobbi Brown for the superlicious-looking make-up! She's damn dedicated! Also that day, I learned that Nadiah is actually a distant cousin of mine, related through marriage as we share the same aunt - which means both Nadiah and Eka is a part of my big happy family.

I went straight back to work on the 8th and haven't stop working since. But it got paid off as I have the most wonderful, relaxing and amazingly superb Sunday ever. Had a mini post-wedding vintage reception in Tanarimba, Janda Baik. The idea came about when I found the excellent venue on the net which then leads us to survey the 'heaven' and fell completely for it. The greens, the lodge house, lines of pine trees, the fresh bird-chirping weather in the morning.....it was our perfect, perfect venue. Private and intimate just as what we always wanted.

We had vintage as the theme with everything in yellow and white. My husband worked hard to help me have the wedding of our dreams - we had all the venue set up by ourselves...well, mostly done by him with a help from my best friend, Ira and my colleague Izam. We had this planned and executed within a week; we collected hundres of old books, yellow vintage typewriter, old phone oh and the list goes on! We took care of everything in every aspect of details; from the table set up - we placed yellow chrysantemum in jars, tied 'em up simply with twines and placed on top of the books; to picking out the books titled 'love' and 'marriage', to the smallest things as clipping yellow napkin with clothes pegs, choosing out chocs and candies and I personally designed the badges for guests.

The typewriter was our guest book - guests typed in wishes on a sweet yellow paper. MN did the whole set up; look even sweet and lovelier than I pictured it to be! Definitely a fun project for us both and of course, with everything personalized...I think the result came out even better and we were extremely grateful that everything's perfect....so so perfect for us.

We invited close friends about 70 of them including those who have worked hard for us during the reception in Muar. Its a celebration, we celebrated love yesterday. Its a very relaxing moment, there wasn't any stupid drama or pressure and everyone just chill around chatting, laughing, listening to the music and enjoying the whole serenity. The place was superb, food was extremely good and guests enjoyed themselves.

My lovely dress was again done by Hazree Wahid with two lovely veils - a cute birdcage and a dramatic long one. Caterer is Yapaf Catering (the owner is sooooo nice!).

I'm still smitten.

Here's a few pictures and videos of both reception. Kaz was absolutely cute singing a wittle birthday song to our future kid *teary eyes*

So hey, celebrate love. Even if you're totally bitter with it - its all about how you choose it to be. Happy or a spiteful one.

Happy Tuesday everyone!

4 months more to go. Thats like a blink of an eye thing.

I cant sleep thinking about a lot of things. To be frank, anxiety is eating me up. Many are asking me about the preparation's progress. Well, its moving. Not as fast as others I think, but at least its not stagnant. I'm pretty lucky to have my other close friends to share thoughts and feelings with - four of 'em are getting married this year. We compare, we share and we remind each other. Like me, they too are being swayed by all kinds of emotion's ride - happy, petrified, jumpy.

I am all that and more. It feels like standing still in the middle of a fast-moving crowd. I wish there's someone out there who will grab me by the shoulder and shake me off my panic state of being.

I was feeling rather dreamy with my wedding, that is until someone woke my logic up last night. So yea, whats with all the hassle and effort of planning an entire wedding that finally will leads to nothing but a 4 hours joy of wearing bridal gown? I'm just being a woman, I suppose. Probably thats what differs me and him. So what if I wanna stare at my pelamin design for a full 8 hours? I'm gonna pay for it, I'm gonna sit on it and I'm gonna make sure that the whole event thing I'm planning is gonna be a great one to whomever comes to visit. So if I stare at 'em for 8 hours..its my own time I'm wasting. And no, I did not stare at it for 8 hours. I'm not all ridiculous.

Honestly, if I wanna do it right, it would be just the akad and nothing more. And i'll save all the hours of preparing for a wedding with designing logos and writing copies and think of ideas for print ads. But I too, have a lifetime to spend flipping through pages of my wedding memories. So, 8 hours of staring at my pelamin, 4 hours joy of wearing bridal gown, thousands and thousands of ringgit to reward myself with one perfect day of my life...if it equals to my frikking happiness, why not? I'm a photographer, a designer, a copywriter - what do you think drive me to be all these if not for my emotions and feelings?

Sorry for the rant. I've been bottling it up for so long.

Sigh. Mm. I'm going for the course this week. I hate courses. I dont know exactly why we need it. Basically, people go for it just because. The rule has been written and as a good citizen, one must follow. I doubt people go for the courses to educate themselves on marriage. Ironically, from what I heard, the statistic of divorce shoots up each year. I just hope the course I'm going is REALLY going to teach me something.

A bit of update - I have switched photographer. Anna Rina isn't available for both dates so we are going for Syahrin Aziz for his side and Picture Elements for my side. Luckily for us to have a lot of great photographer friends but even though we are, we're still a bit picky when it comes to this matter. I love Syahrin for his composition and story-telling while Grom (Picture Elements), oh Grom has always been my favorite photographer for the longest of time. His work is always different and really gets to you. If you have the budget, you can try to hire these three fav photographers of mine - Anna Rina, Syahrin Aziz and Picture Elements. If you are a bit on the tight side, you can hire me. Haha. Oh, btw..I personally think that Picture Elements website doesnt quite do Grom much justice. I've seen his portfolios and they are wayy better.

I recommend you not because they are THE wedding photographer or whatever. But its more because I know them personally and I see them as a person than a company, you know what I mean? I know Anna Rina is one very happy-go-lucky gal, I know Syahrin yang sangat baik hati and Grom who's respectable and very very humble. I love Whizarts too. Their pictures are WOW through the end. But my pocket isn't deep enough to hire them. I'm still sad that I Anna Rina isn't available :(